Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Christmas Morning...

I used to love waking up Christmas morning and seeing all the presents under the tree...ahhh, childhood! Having kids kind of brings back those feelings. I love seeing my kids opening their presents with so much joy on their face. It makes my day!

This year Gabriel was more into it then Brooke, she actually got tired of opening presents....silly girl! Gabriel wanted more and more, so we had him open some of Brooke's because she was being a poor sport about it all, she just wanted to get to the playing.

This year Brooke got presents from this 2 year old girl from my moms ward who died tragically. Her mom just wanted to get rid of her toys, so she knew I had a 2 year old girl and gave them to my mom to give to me....very nice of her! So, now Brooke has a Dora the Explorer car and some other girly stuff :)

It was a great Christmas, with great memories! Like me...not cooking dinner on time so we didn't have home made dinner rolls (I had the flu pretty badly a few days before, so I was just getting over it), needless to say, our dinner was simple :)
I can't wait until next year, when Matthew will have a solid job, and we can get things for the kids and for other people! I love giving presents, that's the best part!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008


I'm so excited about Christmas I'm about to explode. Though I will never forget why we celebrate Christmas.
I'm so grateful for the ultimate gift He gave us, suffering for our sins. Something no man can nor will ever be able to do to this day. That is something I will always be grateful for! I think of Mary and Joseph and having to raise Jesus, it must have been an amazing thing to witness. I wonder if he ever went through the terrible 2's of if he talked from an early age. All I know, is that I'm grateful everyday that I can turn to him in prayer and ask for forgiveness and know I'm on the right track to a happy eternity with my wonderful family.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Christmas Time :)

Christmas time if my favorite time of the year! It's definitely a time of giving! A time to be Thankful and a time to think of what Christmas is really about. It's not about presents! It's about our Savior Jesus Christ :) I'm so thankful for him in my life! I'm so thankful for knowing him...truly knowing him. I wouldn't be where I am in life right now without him and his Church by my side.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

For your viewing pleasure

Saturday, November 22, 2008


So I saw Twilight in Theaters last night.

Let's start off by saying I'm a BIG fan of the books!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM!! I understand that books made into movies don't expose the whole shabang! I thought it was a great movie (probably because I love the book so much) I just wish they would have picked a better Bella. She wasn't the best actress (in my opinion)..she got the whole tom-boyish thing down. If you have seen her off screen, she has a habit of touching her face all the time...and she did it a lot in the movies. I don't just kinda bugged me. I thought Edward was a hottie-tottie. They did the rest of the casting very well! I think my favorite character of the book besides Bella Edward and Jacob is Alice. They casted her perfectly!
I took Gabriel with me because Matthew couldn't come with me (no baby sitter) and I hate seeing a movie alone. He fell asleep half way through the movie and woke up right when it ended.
I can't wait til it comes out in stores so I can BUY it :) AND I can't wait til they make the next movie. Which I'm pretty sure they will...the first movie was a BIG hit!

Thursday, November 13, 2008


So lately I have been interested in my heritage. My Grandmother on my dad's side is 100% Lithuanian (used to be part of Russia...but then split into their own little country). Well....I have ALWAYS hated my big bones and being tall and my high cheek bones. So I looked up online to see what Russian women look like....and there I was!! I never knew how much I looked like a Russian! I thought Russians were these tiny women, but only a small percentage of women are tiny! A majority of Russian have big bones, high cheek bones and THICK lips! So needless to say, I have more respect for myself and the way I look. I have even started to learn Russian...( I know, it's HARD) It is a hard language to learn, but I need to start somewhere! I so wish my grandma knew Russian and then taught it to me so I could be fluent in it!!!

I just thought it was really neat how much I look like a Russian! I love my Heritage!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

My son...

You would think that we beat him. These pictures look like it, don't they? WRONG! He went outside to play and came back with little red marks on the corner of BOTH his eyes and when he woke up this morning they were SWOLLEN!! like you would never believe! Then I saw that he has 2 more mosquito bites on his cheek! So...he's a mosquito attractor like a bug zapper without the ZAP! He goes outside and attracks ALLL the mosquito's. One time he had bites all over his legs AND his arms! It's insane. What's even more insane is that both him AND Brooke have the same blood type but the bugs don't touch her! Strange...
Poor kid! I feel so bad for him...I would put some itch cream on it, but I'm afraid he would rub it into his eyes and that's something that I don't want!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Made tutu's/New President... it's been a while since I have updated this! So I think it's about time to do so!

Halloween came and went! Brooke was a princess (we used her pink dress, I got her a crown and I made her a sash from pink ribbon, and I even put makeup on her...which she LOVED) Gabriel was an elephant. He was an elephant last year also, but he loved being an elephant, so we didn't complain! Tristan...well...he was just the cutest baby who ever lived :) We had Halloween at our church...and they got PLENTY of candy there! So when it came time to go trick-or-treating on the 31st, the kids just stayed at home with me and passed out candy. I liked it better that way.

I decided to make Brooke a tutu. I've been wanting to get a tutu for her for a while now, but I saw someone's pictures of tutu's they made for their daughter and it looked pretty simple. I went on and found out how to make tutu's the easy way!! MAN was it easy...but MAN was it time consuming. I guess it was time consuming because I was making the tut while feeding Tristan, while taking care of 2 other kids...who knows! I'm pretty good at crafty stuff.

Well...we made History Tuesday when we elected our new Pres. of the USA. President Obama will now be our next Pres. I really don't know what to make of it! I'm very happy for him and for the black community. I just hope they think they are superior. I'm scared because of Obama's policies! I don't like one does unless your sick! But I do support our troops 100% and I support the reason we went into Iraq! The thought of showing defeat when we still need to help the Iraqi troops is scary! Al Quieda(sp) is probably thowing a party right now. I also hate that because Obama will be our next pres. the gays will have more rights and that abortions and clinics will have more support! I don't support gays, nor do I support abortions!! They are of the devil and I want nothing to do with it!!!
Matthew refuses to listen to the news because of how dissapointed he is in the choice we made! I mean...come on...this man doesn't even salute our flag!!!! That's just unpatriotic! Not to mention his wife! UGH!
I'm happy for them...although I had nothing to do with electing them! I hope ad pray they don't mess our country up!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008


Time goes by so fast these days!

Gabriel will be 4 come Feb. 4th, Tristan will be 4 months this coming month and Brooke turned 2 in Aug. Yesterday we went clothes shopping for the kids and I had these cute shoes in mind for Gabriel (they light up)...well, we get to the store and he wants batman shoes!! I gave him a choice...light up shoes or bat man shoes...every time...Bat man! He's making his own choices :( which is of course I really good thing, but also means he's growing up! But I at least got to pick out Brooke's shoes...princess' all over them :) Tristan is scooting all over the place when I place him on his stomach. I put him in the middle of the blanket and I leave to do something and he's off the blanket happy as can be.

These last few months I have been wondering about birth control, and it's been frustrating. I was given a prescription for the pill, but it reduces milk supply...I already have low milk supply. I was given the chance to have an IUD, been there, done that. I've also found out that it kills the fertilized egg (if sperm does get up there) in the process which in my view is abortion!! Matthew told me we would have a not so pleasant marriage if I got an IUD knowing we were killing babies.
So, I got a film which is fine for now, but I really don't want any chances of getting pregnant again. UGH...I'm stuck inbetween a rock and a hard place!
In any way...I know the Lord will take care of me, and he knows what's best for or not!

Halloween is tomorrow and I'm very excited! Although we are not having the kids go out. We had a trick or treat at our church a week ago and they got lots of candy there! We don't need more sugar highs...haha. We will though, dress them up and have them help hand out candy :) I love halloween. Maybe because I grew up in Massachusetts and I went to Salem every Halloween.
I just can't wait!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Well, I just wanted to update on what's going on in the Armstrong Family.
Tristan will be 3 months come the 13th of this month :) I can't believe time goes by so fast! He's developed so much in these short month, it's just crazy! He's lifted up his head at 1 1/2 months, started smiling at 1 1/2 months, he just started to laugh a few days ago when I tickled him (that's my favorite), and he's sleeping through the night since 2 months. He only takes 3 naps a day, morning after I feed him, later in the afternoon, and once at night.
I'm still breastfeeding, although I can't completely satisfy him, I'm so VERY thankful that I can do at least a little! It's a lot better then my other 2 kids, they were mostly on formula, but Tristan is mostly on the boob.
Tristan is just such a happy baby, and I'm SO glad to have him in my life. I felt a very strong connection to him in the womb, and that connection is still just as strong, both him and I know it :) It will be exciting to see how things will be when he's Gabriel's age.

Gabriel is starting to spell words out!!! I'm so proud of him! Matthew pulls out this magnet board where he spells simple words like Ab or Bat or Bed or Cat...and makes Gabriel sound each letter out and then Gabriel spells out the words and is so proud of himself. I can't wait to get him into school, he's so excited now, how will he be when he really learns stuff? I can't wait! Gabriel is talking more and more, and sometimes he says stuff that we never taught him, and we are like..."where did THAT come from" it's so exciting to see him progress :)
He's such a mommy's helper, he loves helping around the house.

Brooke is talking more and more. She's a lot better then Gabriel was at her age. She's making sentences, and it makes mommy and daddy so proud!
She's very verbal at what she wants, and she won't stop until someone gives her their undying attention!
She's a very touchy feely girl, and LOVES giving hugs and kisses. We cant wait to see her progress even more.
She's such a mommy's girl. She loves to watch me put on my makeup, and even uses the brushes I use when I'm done with them, it's wicked cute to see. She is also getting better with Tristan. It used to be that I couldn't leave Tristan alone in a room with Brooke because she would hit him or sqwish him or step on him, but lately, she has been very good, and even likes to feed Tristan a bottle.

Well, that's about it for the Armstrong Family. I hope everyone has a great Halloween, and eats lots of candy!!!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Random Pictures I found...Past and Present :)

Some of my sealing July 26, 2005 and some present ones :)

Monday, September 1, 2008


Well, today we celebrate Matthew's 30th Birthday!

I can't believe that about 4 1/2 years ago we met, fell completely in love, got married and now have 3 beautiful children together!

Matthew is my everything. My best friend, my companion, my shoulder to cry on, my confidant, and most ETERNAL companion.
I'm so thankful to his parents for raising such a wonderful boy who grew up to be the man that he is today. I love him with all of my heart and feel blessed to spend the eternities with him :)

Friday, August 15, 2008

Brooke Eden Armstrong

Well, today is Brooke's 2nd Birthday! I can't believe I had her 2 years ago, time goes by so fast!!
She's such a little mommy, she loves to help out with Tristan...but she's been acting out because of his residence here. It will get better with time (I hope).

Some of Brooke's accomplishments have been:
making sentences
telling us what she has done wrong
being a little girly girl (which I love)
she has great fashion sense ;)
She can stand up for herself
she's my little flirt and she's a people person, she first started to smile at 2 weeks and hasn't stopped since!
She loves kissing and hugging

I'm so blessed to have her in my life and to call her my daughter! I love her so much! I don't know what I would do without her.
We went to a BBQ and she went swimming in this kiddie pool without floaties on because we never go we never got her some. Well....she slipped and couldn't catch herself to stand up, I looked up and thought she was brave and went under water, but no, she was was a HORRIBLE sight to see! I had a plate full of food and I just jumped in the pool and stood her up...she was pretty shaken up about it, and didn't want to go back in which I don't blame her. Seeing that gave me nightmares and was very thankful that nothing bad happened to her.

We are so blessed to have such a bubbly little girly girl in our lives, she makes us smile all the time and always has enough hugs and kisses for mommy and daddy!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


Short and sassy look...

Layered look...

Satin edge tutu...

Flower filled tutu....I think this is adorable...seeing Brooke run around in this is too precious!

Ever since Brooke was born I always wanted to dress her up in girly girly stuff, like with pink and purple stuff, with flowers, hair stuff...but never really had the money to do it with. I've also wanted to buy her some tutu's which I think are so stinkin cute! I was looking around and found some WICKED cute tutu's!!! I can't wait to save money to buy her some tutu's.

P.S. I found these tutu's at for anyone who would like to see their daughters in tutu's too.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Doc Appt.

So today we went to WIC to reapply and to also put Tristan on the plan. So he's in the 25th percentile on everything, which isn't that good, but he's in the 50th percentile on his weight as a whole. He's only gained 4 oz since he was born. I'm not too sure why...he eats like a normal baby. He has another appt next week to see if he's gained more weight.

I also talked to a Lactician doctor and she said it takes about a month for your milk to really come in and keep your baby full, the first few weeks are practice for you and baby, and it should get better in the next few weeks. But....other women don't have this problem...they breastfeed from the very start and don't have to I still think I don't supply enough for my kid...we will see in the next few weeks.

Anyway...things have been going great. Matthew's piano buisness us making a big hit, he has 5 students thus far and he will even get more in the next few months. He is actually going to be teaching at a studio where there will be over 100 students. We are very excited for this upcoming event :)

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


My mom came down to visit for a week and a half and she left today, which I'm pretty upset about, she was such a big help! I'm going to miss having her around to help out, but I can't have her here forever, I need to do things on my own with 3 kids....which I'm finding out is harder then I thought it would be. Maybe it will get better when Tristan gets older.

We have finally hit a point where Gabriel and Brooke are acting out because of the new baby here. I'm not too sure if it's because of Tristan or because my mom was here and they knew they could get away with everything in the world, but Brooke keeps hitting Gabriel with anything she can find...and she instigates EVERYTHING! I know she's doing it to get more attention, I knew it would come to this...and I was bracing myself...but I thought it would come earlier then this, so I let my guard down. We will see how it all works out now that my mom is gone. Our whole routine was thrown off due to the whole pre labor and then having Tristan and then when my mom came, so once we get back on a schedule I hope things will be better.

Well...once again I hit a brick wall in my breastfeeding. When Tristan was born he never really latched on properly, and my nipples were and still are so very sore and at the beginning were bleeding because he didn't know how to suck. I completely balled my eyes out the first time I had to feed him formula, because I was doing so well and then one night I just couldn't satisfy him.
Since then I've been having to supplement, so I start him off on me and then when I can't satisfy him I give him formula. I went to the WIC department yesterday and they gave me a really high tech pump...and it's doing the job. I think because Tristan doesn't really know how to latch on, my milk supply has been diminishing and pumping has helped out. I'm still bracing myself for failure, but I'm hoping I can exclusively breastfeed (or pump and feed him through the bottle).

Things here in the Armstrong household have been going pretty well....there has been some stress on my part and some extreme mood swings but things have been going good :) and I hope they get even better.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Wonderful life!

So it has been a week and 2 days since Tristan has entered into our lives and life is just amazing! We don't have any problems with Gabriel and Brooke being jealous, they love him so much. Gabriel is such a big helper, he kisses Tristan when he cries and tries to comfort him. Brooke tries to put the pacifier in his mouth when he's so cute to see :)

The sleeping thing has been going great!!! He only wakes up once during the night :) We are putting him on a schedule so he is awake an hour or so before his last feeding, then he sleeps through most of the night. This makes mommy a VERY happy camper!
His jondice is going down, which is a good thing! I'm tired of bringing him to the hospital to get poked in the heel and have them squeeze blood from his heel and watch him scream from agony! I had to deal with it with my other 2's complete torture to see your new born cry so helplessly! We have been putting Tristan in the sun for about an hour in the morning and an hour in the evening so this whole thing will just melt away. He's peeing and pooping like a pro! Gabriel and Brooke had trouble because they had pretty bad jonduice.
Breastfeeding is going SOOO wonderfully! I can actually breastfeed without supplementing! It's a wonderful feeling.

Tristan is already getting bigger and he needs to STOP growing, I love the new born stage! It's funny....while I was going through labor, through all that horrible pain I was thinking how much I never wanted to be pregnant again....but after that feeling wore off...I would totally do it over again just for my precious baby :)

Life is wonderful right about now. I have an eternal family who I would do anything for. Life is good.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008


So....after 13 hours of labor and really...literally NO pushing on my part (just my body's) I have my beautiful baby boy. Tristan Matthew Armstrong was born July 13, 2008 @ 10:30pm, weighing in at 7lbs 9.2oz and 20 1/2 in long.

My Labor Story:

Well, I was in pre-labor for quite a LONG time. I went to the doctors Wed. and they told me I was 3cm dilated. I was completely shocked, I was having some contractions, but nothing that bothered me. So, these continued until Saturday night when I started having them regularly and they kinda hurt....and I was losing my mucus plug and having a bloody show. I told Matthew to get ready because I could have this baby here pretty quick. I got things ready and packed my bag for the hospital.
That night I woke up around 1 am and I was having hard contractions every 5 I timed them and I was right. At about 5 am I woke Matthew up and told him I was in labor and that I thought we should go to the hospital. We got ready, got showered, got the kids ready for church and dropped them off at a Sisters house in our church.
We got to the hospital at 8:30 and they started me up on monitors, and an hour later I was 4 cm dilated, so they told me that they were going to admit me.
They gave me an IV (which wasn't as bad experience....they ALWAYS have to poke me a dozen times before they find the vein, they poked me twice).
My contractions were not at all to a 10 on a pain scale, they were always at a 7.
They told me it was going to be a while before they could give me an they gave me this other drug which was THE GREATEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!!!!! They told me the instant they give it to me I will be drowsy...and MAN were they right. It took about 1 min for the pain killers to work and I was out of it....It was like I was drunk, I couldn't focus or talk right, and I slept for a while because I didn't feel the contractions :):):)
At about 4 pm they broke my water and then the contractions started coming every 2 min. About an hour later they gave me an epidural (which was great by the of the best I have had :)) I was stuck at 8 cm it seemed like forever, then about 9 pm they checked me while I was having a contraction and they could still feel another sack of water, and when the doctor broke that bag of water I literally could feel the baby drop! it felt like a ton of bricks! From that point on I progressed REALLY fast, I went from a 9cm to 10cm from the time he broke my last bag of water. The bum pressure and hip pressure was beyond any pain that I experienced...I didn't even remember it hurting that bad with my last 2....but the time came (about 5 min after they broke my last bag of water) that it was time to push. I told them...I'm pushing and I can't stop. The nurse told me not to push because the doctor was putting on his gear....I couldn't stop and with in 2 pushes (I never really pushed, it was my body pushing the whole time) he was completely push and the head was out and then the other push the rest of the body came. But man o man....what a BIG relief it is to have that baby was complete euphoria.
They had Matthew cut the cord and then put Tristan right on my chest while they were doing the other birthing process and stitching me up :) I didn't have hemorrhoids during this labor and I didn't go to the bathroom on the table either (which was a huge embarrassment from last time). The nurse told me that if every labor was that easy, every woman would want a baby (uhhh.....hello? you weren't going through all that pain lady).

All in all was a great experience. I was VERY thankful that I didn't have a lot of pain, although it was a long labor, there wasn't a lot of pain involved. And I am sooo thankful to have such a beautiful baby to hold and kiss and love :)

Breastfeeding is still an on going battle, and I think it will be for the rest of my child bearing years. I am, though, doing a LOT better with Tristan then with Gabriel and Brooke. By the end of my hospital stay I gave my other 2 formula because I wasn't supplying enough, but with Tristan I didn't, I've only given him 2 oz thus far of formula, although I think it's going to be a regular thing....breastfeeding as much as I can and then supplementing. I SOOO wish I could just full out breastfeed, but I don't think my body can do it....I thought it was on my part, like my fault, I could have dome something more about it....but having Tristan and seeing that I almost starve him if I don't supplement....there's really nothing I can do but supplement.
Frustrating....but I'll have a happier baby because of it :)

Saturday, July 12, 2008

I think labor has finally started....

Well....for the past few days I've been having contractions that have been pretty regular. Last night they were pretty constant, and then stopped and then were pretty sporadic throughout the day until about an hour ago I've been having them constantly....and I am even losing my mucus plug. I lost a big chunk of it when my contractions started an hour ago and have been losing more every time I go to the bathroom. predictions.....I'll probably have this baby either tonight or tomorrow....or even Monday, the day before my birthday..ha ha.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Update lately I have been having the same contractions....but still getting no where! It's very frustrating. I haven't lost my mucus plug, nor has this baby dropped all the way. It's like these contractions are playing with my a bad relationship.

Well....Matthew has drill this weekend, but thankfully he is staying here in Lawton in stead of going all the way to Oklahoma City. I highly doubt I'll go into labor this weekend, because I've been going through the same thing for over a week and no change, except for my dilation.

well.....I'll definitely keep this updated for those of you who actually read this. I need to figure out how to add friends onto this......

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

38 weeks 1 day!! update!

Went to the doctors today and I got checked and I was 3 cm dilated 30% effaced and at -2 station.

I am in shock because with both my other kids I was having pretty bad contractions and this time around I'm not having them as badly....I get them here and there, but nothing out of the normal. I'm just praying this is a sign that I'm going to have an easy labor. Matthew gave me a blessing about a month ago and in the blessing it said that this labor will be the easiest of them all....and I have faith that it will be :) I have to have faith!

Anyway.....updates later :)

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

38 weeks!!!

Ok, so only 2 more weeks left to go (maybe less). I'm excited, but once I get to the hospital, all the memories of pains and labor will hit and then I won't be as excited, but the end product is always the best part!
I went to the hospital the 4th to get a urinalysis done to see if I had protein in my urine (the doctors thought I had a high blood pressure...which I really didn't have that high of a blood pressure...who wouldn't have a high blood pressure going to a doctors office?) Anyway....they were going to induce me if I did have protein in my urine....and I didn't, so now it's all a waiting game from here on out. I've been having those oh so lovely Braxton Hicks Contractions....and on top of that...going #2 a lot (which is usually a sign that labor is about to start soon).

Well, as you can see from my picture, my baby has dropped and he is so totally locking into place, he's in my hips and boy is there pressure.
We had a great 4th of July. Matt's friend Nic joined us and man....are my kids in love with him or what? All they talk about lately is where is Nic? I also included a pic of Brooke and Nic...he's her new found love :) It's great finding someone my kids love and we can trust with them....Brooke is pretty picky when it comes to people, but she loves Nic.
I will keep this updated from here on out....I'm going to the doc's tomorrow to get checked and see how I'm doing (my luck....NOTHING) but we shall see.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Contractions lead to LABOR!

Well....I went to the Doctors today and I am less then a cm dialated....which is eh...but good at the same time because that means I'm actually getting somewhere!
I had a different doctor today who I really liked and I got to see Aeneas again :) I saw him breathing and his heartbeat and his profile (I think he will look like Matthew). I have to go to the hospital tomorrow because I've been having high blood pressure and they just want to do a pee in the cup routine to check and see if I have protein in my urine. If I do have protein in my urine then I that means I will have to be induced :) I know....being induced sounds so unpleasent, but I'm SO stinkin' excited! I really hope I get induced because that means I get to see my little prince sooner :)

Anyway....that's all that's going on right now, I will update you on what's going on later when I find out.

I hope you all enjoy your 4th of July....I know I will!! I'll definitely take pictures :)

Tuesday, July 1, 2008


Well today started out pretty well...just a normal morning. About an hour ago I started having really bad cramping on my right side....I was supposed to go shopping (thankfully Matthew is at the store as I speak with Gabriel) Matthew gave me a blessing and since then I've felt somewhat better...I read my scriptures and while reading the pain went it makes me want to read non stop! I've definitely been having contractions though because every so often I get horrible pains and my stomach hardens....OH BOY.....the thought makes me nervous yet excited!
Poor little Aeneas is probably suffering just as much as me...his little home is being condensed down to nothing. Soon when my water breaks he will have no where to go but out!

Anyway....just updating my progress :)

37 weeks

So I have been slacking on the picture taking lately....sorry! I promise I'll take some more this week....heck, maybe even today...I'm actually feeling pretty good today.
Well, I had my appt. last week and things went well, the baby is in the head down position, which is great, I don't want him to turn! My cervix is finally ripening!!! And I think he's starting to drop, though it's a gradual drop. I'm still not able to breathe as well and I can't wait til he drops all the way.
I think I'm having contractions because this morning my stomach hurt so badly like BM pains and that's the beginning signs of contractions....then other stuff follows....but who knows, with my luck I'll go over my due date like with Brooke...I'm dreading that so much because I'm just so ready for this pregnancy to be over with!

Matthew has been such an amazing help these past few weeks, I don't know what I would do without him. He knows how hard my last month of pregnancy is and tries to help out as much as possible! I know there are men out there who don't help out (which is lame since they put the woman in that situation) and I'm SO greatful for what I have!!! My kids have also been pretty good as well, which makes it easier on me...I mean, they are still kids, but they have been better these past few weeks!

I'm getting SO excited yet SO nervous at the same time. I have no clue how the labor is going to be like and I think that's the scary part....i had such a short labor last time with Brooke but a HORRIBLE epidural...and I'm dreading that part.

I'll keep this updated so everyone knows what is going on when :)
Any day now....really

Friday, June 27, 2008

36 weeks 3 days

So, this week I turned 36 weeks and the downhill spiral starts!! I always have the worst last month of my pregnancy. With Gabriel i just had swollen feet, but with Brooke I put myself on bed rest, I couldn't take the pain of it all. With Aeneas it's just worse! I've had so much pressure and on top of that, he moves non stop (which I love but add the pressure, it's not fun) These past few days my hemorrhoids have been acting up.....and man, do they HURT. I can't move without hurting, and then on top of that my sides are hurting for some unknown reason....ugh! I hate the last month of pregnancies, I really hope that I have an easy labor.
Today I have a doctors appt. and hopefully I can get to the bottom of this. I also am getting checked to see if I have strep b...a virus that needs to be treated with an IV during labor cause if not, the baby could get very sick. I know I'll fail the test and I'll have to get the IV because it happened with Brooke. I HATE HATE HATE IV's....they NEVER do it right on me and I ALWAYS end up with 10 thousand bruises after I'm done because they don't listen to me when I tell them....look, I need the anaesthesiologist to give me the IV.....after about umpteen tries they finally listen to me.....NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT!!
Anyway....i know labor isn't going to be fun, i don't think it's meant to be fun, but boy, afterwards when you hold that tiny baby in your arms, it's so worth it all!

I'll keep you all updated on how things are progressing.

Friday, June 20, 2008

35 weeks 3 days

So I had my doctor appointment yesterday and everything is going great. Aeneas' heartbeat was at 150-160 and he's finally in the head down position!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! So he should start to drop anytime now :)
I'm now to the point where I have appointments every week until he is here :) I'm so excited to meet this little guy. Matthew gave me a blessing a few nights ago because I was having such a hard time, but the Lord assured me that everything was going to be just fine, and I trust the Lord, so I just have to have faith that he will take care of me.

Well today I had an emotional breakdown....over something COMPLETELY stupid!!!! I went to Wal Mart to buy food to last us through the rest of the month and I also picked up my WIC stuff....well, I had 3 bottles of juice and 1 bottle of fruit/veggie juice. Well, I always get my fruit/veggie juice as a veggie juice, and I never had anyone stop me until today.....the lady said that it has to be pure veggie juice to count and she explained it...I completely understood (it would basically rob Wal Mart of money if I got it because it's counted as a juice instead of a veggie juice), well, I didn't get it. So I was about to leave and the lady behind me said "stay here, I'll buy the other juice for you, you and your baby need it" it completely blew me off guard and I started crying!!!!! I thanked her so many now I'm balling my eyes out over something stupid and everyone at Wal Mart is looking at me thinking I'm an emotional basket case. I cried all the way home until I told Matthew what happened. I was so greatful for what she did for me....although I would have been fine without it, she bought it for me. I don't think I thanked her enough,
i was in the middle of crying and looking away....but I think crying helped her understand that I was very greatful! I just felt like a blubbering idiot!!! I wish I could to that to people....I can't wait until we are completely financially stable so I can!I love giving.
So anyway....things have been going great, other then my emotional breakdown...haha!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

35 weeks 1 day

I can't believe this pregnancy has gone by so fast! I have 5 weeks or less left to go and it's a scary yet very exciting thought!
This past week has been an ok week, nothing really exciting, just regular pregnancy stuff. I failed my one hour glucose test and had to go in for a three hour one! UGH! I didn't know how horrible it was going to be. They took blood from me every 4 times total, they took my blood and my poor veins hurt after the 3rd and 4th poke. I don't know what my results are, but I have a doctors appt tomorrow and they should tell me then.
I've been having a lot of pressure in my big surprise really. This baby hasn't dropped yet because I still can't breathe.

It's crazy to think that I could really deliver in 2 weeks. I was 2 1/2 weeks early with Gabriel and I think since him I've been on my toes waiting for the 37th week to come. My mother in law comes a week before my due date and I'm praying Aeneas comes then because I will have someone to help out PLUS have someone here to watch the kids while I deliver.
Anyway...I'll keep you posted as to what happens when. I haven't had Braxton Hicks Contractions a lot this pregnancy...I've had a little here and there, but nothing really big.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Name chage!

So0o0o...we have decided to change this baby's name from Elijah to Aeneas (a-nay-us). I wasn't settled on Elijah, and decided to look for other names. Last night Matthew and I were looking on line and the name Aeneas came up...and we both fell in love right away. It's Latin spelling and comes from a lot of origins, Greek, Scottish, Latin, Irish...and means praiseworthy. Aeneas was a Roman warrior...very powerful.
We are still thinking of David for the middle name, but haven't completely settled on it yet. We were also thinking Matthew for the middle name....but we want to come up the with perfect middle name that doesn't over power his fist name, nor make his whole name extremely over bearing. Aeneas David or Aeneas Matthew works....we also this Aeneas Micheal works, but I don't like the name Micheal very much.....who knows. All we know is that his name will go over well with the girls when he gets older, since it's a very unique name....and it kind of sounds like Royalty to me :)

Anyway....I can't wait to meet this little guy.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Gestational Diabetes!?

So this morning I got a call from the Doctors telling me that my 1 hour glucose test came back a little high and that I need to go back to do a stupid 3 hour test! NOT looking forward to it.
I'm SO scared that they will tell me that it's still high. I don't want a HUGE baby and I DONT want to go through what women go through when they have GD.
I'm just not too happy about all this......ugh!
FRUSTRATING! I hate being fat!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

33 weeks 1 day

33 weeks have gone by so fast...yet so slow! I can't believe that in about 7 weeks I will be holding my baby boy in my arms :)

This past weeks has been going ok. Matthew came home from OIC Thursday the 30th of May....and Thank Goodness!! I really felt like I was going to go insane!! I don't have any friends around here, so I couldn't just call anyone up and be like...Hey, can I come over for the day. We went to McDonald's every monday night for FHE and to just let the kids get some energy off....and we stayed there for a good hour to 2 hours when we did go. We also watched a LOT of Sesame Street!! 3-5 times a day for 2 weeks, so lets just say, they were a little hooked! haha. We have cut it off completely, but they only watch it maybe once a day.

My stomach has been having a LOT of pressure in it, and this baby NEEDS to drop!! I can't breathe! I think he's still head up, because I feel kicks down there...unless they are hiccups, but who knows. These past weeks weeks my inner thighs and uhhh...down there REALLY hurts, like I just did 10 million lunges! It's crazy. In the middle of the night I can barely turn over because it's a struggle to do so. And Elijah still loves the right side of my stomach, haha. He hangs over there a lot lately.
Other then that, everything is going great. I'm making an appt to see the Doc sometime this week or next, so we will see what position this child of mine is in.

P.S. The pics are of a cook out we went to with some friends who came down to visit. Matthew has been friends with them for a long time, and our kids are around the same age, so they get along great :)

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

32 weeks 1 day

So, just thought I would put up some pics of me at 32 weeks :)

I also think Elijah is turning to the head down position, I don't feel him kick me down there, usually on the sides and up in my that's a VERY good thing :)
I'm sooooo happy and thankful he's turning :)

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

32 weeks

My gosh! I really could deliver in 5 weeks!!! That's just NUTS!!

Things have been going pretty well. Matthew is still gone, and the kids have been acting up a little, but nothing I can't handle.
It's getting to the point now where I can't breathe because this baby is up in my ribs....and he is still head up!!! WONDERFUL! I REALLY REALLY hope SOON that he turns head down, cause I don't want a breech baby and end up having a c-section!
I can't wait til he drops! I will then have my breathing ability back :)
I'm so afraid of gaining so much weight this pregnancy, it's crazy! I've only gained 10 so far....but who knows now! I've been eating like a dang pig. We shall find out.

My sciatic nerve isn't hurting as bad, which is great, because I have to take care of 2 kids and keep up a house.

Anyway, things have been going great this week.

P.S. I put up a pic of the kids at the park...we didn't stay long, it was 10:00am and 81 degrees out!! I didn't feel like chasing 2 kids in a HUGE park in 80 degree being big with baby, haha!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

31 weeks

So, today I'm 31 weeks....that means I'm now in the single digit of weeks left, if I deliver on the 22nd. I'm excited!! I could deliver in 5 weeks....who knows.

This baby is still head up, and I know this because he still kicks me down there...ugh! but he likes to punch me in my sides and ribs. Last night I could feel his head....and it was a cool feeling. Elijah is still active as anything.

I'm doing well with Matthew gone and all...I haven't cried AT ALL since he's been gone...WOO HOO!! I sometimes hate being an emotional basketcase, so it has been calming to not cry everytime I think of Matthew.
The kids have been really good these past few days, and you have no clue at how thankful I am for that!! I mean, they act like 2 and 3 year I can't expect perfect kids, but they are pretty close to it ;) Gabriel has realized that daddy is gone, and he doesn't like the fact, but I think he forgets about it during the day, and Brooke has been really needy lately, and has been sucking her thumb NON stop! It's crazy! She's more attached to daddy then Gabriel is....she's his little Princess, so not having her "prince" there is not her idea of a fun time.

Over all, things have been really great so far.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

30 weeks 4 days

So this morning Matthew left to go to Camp Gruber(sp) for 2 weeks....and I'm stuck here at home. I was supposed to drop him off and then go to Missouri to stay with the in laws, but my sciatic nerve is hurting me way to much, I just don't think I could make the 7 hour drive by myself without putting my feet up. I hope I can survive these next 2 weeks without kill myself or the kids....we will see. I have the car, which is GREAT, so monday nights we will be going to McDonalds to play and have dinner. And there will be a lot of Sesame Street on TV these next 2 weeks.

I'm doing ok, as of now. We will see what my emotions will be like come tonight when I sleep in a bed by myself. I know it will be hard, but that's the life of someone who is in the service....and a wife who's someone is in the's all about making sacrafices.

Well, last night we went out to Los Tres Amigos...a Mexican Resturant...and it was SOO good, both the food AND spending time as a family for a little while. When we got home, Matthew decided to put Brooke in his duffel bag and carry her around....and she LOVED it :) So, that's the pic on the top of this blog.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend :)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

30 Weeks

Well, I'm 30 weeks!! 10 weeks or left until Elijah is here...and I'm a bit scared to tell you the truth. Not the raising him part, the whole labor and delivery process :( I don't know if I'm being scared for a reason or if I'm just extremely nervous! Either way I don't like feeling like this.

This past week has gone really well :) This past Sunday we mother's celebrated Mother's Day. My father in law is a Bishop (in Missouri) and he let all the women have the sunday off....all the men took care of most of the classes and let all the women go to Releif Society :) What a GREAT idea?!
We had flowers passed around to us....which was very nice :)
A few days before I was really emotional about everything....We went to our cars dealership on Saturday and got it fixed and we got to drive around a NICE SUV (Hyundai Ceracruz). I shouldn't have driven it around cause it just made me want one even more! I'm tired of driving around my car and then to add another baby in the back seat.....I'm just not looking forward to I got really emotional and told Matthew that it just made me depressed to drive that thing around cause I just want one so badly....and have been wanting an SUV for a while, but we can't afford one right now :( Well, Sunday came around and Matthew and Gabriel didn't go to church because Gabriel had this horrible rash on his body that didn't look too good, so they stayed home while Brooke and myself went to church. I came home to a clean home :) Matthew and Gabriel cleaned the front rooms for me and even made me a card :) It made my mood change so quickly. Matthew told me that I wasn't to do anything for the rest of the I didn't, and it was SOOO nice to just RELAX!

My sciatic nerve is still bothering me. But if I lay down for an hour or so the pain subsides. I'm not looking forward to when Matthew is gone for 2 weeks to leave me alone and take care of these kids alone.
I'm not going to Missouri while Matthew is gone because my sciatic nerve is just so bad, I'm afraid that after driving for 7 hours straight it will just get worse! So I've opted to stay home :( I hope things will turn out ok for me.

Anyway, things have been going great.
Until next week.

Friday, May 9, 2008

29 weeks 3 days

So...quick update. I went to the docs today and the baby is in a diagonal position. I wish I could tell where he was located....all the doc did was feel on my stomach and was like...he's diagonal, how the heck? haha...that's why he's the doctor and I'm not.
He also gave me stronger Tylonol to help with the sciatica. We shall see if it works.
o0o and Elijah's heartbeat is at 140. So, he's doing really well.
So...the weight gain. I've only gained 10 lbs in the past 2 months :):):) so a grand total of 10 lbs...haha! I dropped a lot of weight in my first trimester and then gained it all back so I'm counting how much I've gained since pre pregnancy weight and it's 10 lbs.
So, things are going great :)

Thursday, May 8, 2008

29 weeks

So I've posted 2 pictures: one of Matthew asleep on the sofa with Brooke on his chest...too cute :)
The other is of me at 29 weeks pregnant...frontal view :)

Well, this past week has been hard on me. My sciatic nerve was and is still bothering me. I can't do a lot of house work due to the fact that my left leg hurts so badly at the end of the day. I have a doctors appt today...which I'm really not looking forward to, I have no clue how much I've gained, and I'm afraid I've gained like 50 lbs since I last saw the Doc. which was the beginning of March. I hate the weight gain in pregnancy. I'm not a tiny person to begin with....and add on the extra weight I gain during pregnancy...I fell like a darn house :(
I've been REALLY tired lately. No matter how much sleep I get it just seems to never be enough. I'll talk to the doc about that today and see what he says.
Other then that, things have been going well. Elijah is kicking like crazy, which is a good thing...that means he's doing ok in my belly :)

I hope all you Mother's have a great Mother's Day :)
Until next week....

Saturday, May 3, 2008

28 weeks 4 days

So, I went to the hospital on Wed to get my RhoGAM. I swear, hospitals are not the smartest!
I go in and they have to take my blood to see if I'm A-....UHHH, YEAH!! I have a card from my last baby to prove it! They said it was about insurance and what not....I understand that, but if I'm A-...I'm not going to lie about body could literally kill my baby if I don't get this shot! So, 10 min later they say I could get the shot. I head up to Labor and delivery and they take my blood pressure and it was 155/77...WOW!!!! My blood pressure shot up even more when I saw the dang needle they were going to poke in my butt, thankfully, I didn't feel a thing though! Whew!
They told me to wait around 15 in to take another blood pressure reading and this time was MUCH better 121/64. The nurse was much pleased too....she told me her blood pressure would have gone up like that too if she saw the needle that was about to go in her butt...haha!

I'm still feeling unbelievable pressure. I'm not sure if this baby is head down or not! Some days it feels like he is head down and he kicks me in my mid tummy section and other days it feels like hes head up and he kicks me down there. I'm just not sure! haha
So, I figured out that I'm not leaking amniotic's URINE! YUCK!!!! I got pads so my garments aren't all's soooo embarrassing!!! I NEVER had this happen with Gabriel or Brooke. I really hope this baby isn't HUGE when he comes out! I hope for my sake, if he is, that I deliver early!

Anyway....just wanted to vent about my visit to the hospital.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

28 weeks


So0o0o 12 weeks to go! It's just CRAZY! I'm almost down to the single digits in my pregnancy!

This past week has been hard, but what 3rd trimester isn't? I hate it when mothers say that their pregnancy was the perfect ever! Especially if it's their first pregnancy and they have nothing to compare it to! I've been having sooo much pressure in my uterus, it's just driving me nuts!! I can't eat a lot, I have to eat 5 small meals now, instead of 3 regular ones, cause if I do, then I feel like I'm going to throw up and I am in constant pain for the rest of the day. I pee like, non stop!!!!! I think I'm either leaking amniotic fluid or this baby is just pushing the pee out of me because Saturday night I woke up to go pee and I felt wet, but it didn't smell like pee. I'm not sure. I've been SOO constipated too, and I hate it!! That's adding more pressure to my stomach on top of the unbileivable pressure I'm already feeling.
This baby kicks me NON STOP! All you moms out there are probably saying, I know how you feel, but....I don't think you do. He kicks me constantly....I NEVER get a break, only when I sleep, he's on my schedule, he's awake when I'm awake and asleep when I'm asleep, which I hope turns out to be a good thing, that's another added pressure on my uterus. This pregnancy has been a tough one, that's for sure, but I would not trade it for the world. I can't wait to meet Elijah.

Today I was supposed to have an appt with the docs, but they had to reschedule me for May 9th, but tomorrow I'm going to the office to get a perscription to get RhoGAM and then go to the Hospital I'm delivering at and have them give me the shot there, and they are going to do some more screening. So, I have a busy day tomorrow.

Anyway....that's all that's going on in my life right now, as far as pregnancy goes.
Until next week :)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

27 weeks

Well, yesterday I hit my 27 week mark, and it was crazy!! I felt SOO much pressure and Elijah was moving like never before!! I thought he was moving into the head down position, but then this morning I felt some very strong kicks down there and I was going to the bathroom, no lie, every 10 min. I had a bunch of watermelon and I guess that went right through me....I was peeing like a dang race horse.

Today I feel MUCH better, not as much pressure, but I'm having a hard time breathing, not too bad, but it's not fun.

Anyway, my in-laws are coming this Friday and I'm so very happy to have them here! I love my in-laws! My husband's family is the greatest I have ever met...ever!! They are so loving and giving. And they are very strong in the church! I love that!

This week is also my ward's potluck...which I'm excited about :) I'm making home made cinnamon rolls :):) Yumm-o!

Until next week :)

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

26 weeks

So0o0o....only 14 weeks to go! Next week I will hit my 3rd trimester mark!!! That's just plain CRAZY!!!!!!! And....according to stuff that I have been reading, the baby will move to the head down position :):) I'm kinda looking forward to this baby not kicking me in the private area! But...I'll have to deal with him kicking me in the lungs and I just can't win.

I ended up not having my appt. this past week because my OB doesn't come on certain they put me down to go on the 29th of this month which will be my 28th week...which means....getting a shot in the butt!! I guess I can't go longer then 28 weeks to get RhoGAM.

This past week has been great. I feel wonderful, other then pressure.....but all you mothers know what I'm talking about. And I have been having gas like you would NEVER believe! It's gross knowing I have stinkier gas then my husband at this point!! Last night Matthew got the Febreeze out and did the whole room and know it's bad when your husband has to spary the house with air freshner!! hahaha I only have stinky gas when I have boys for some reason....they take after their father haha!!

I can no longer sleep on my stomach :(:( I'm a stomach sleeper, so when I now try to sleep on my stomach, Elijah kicks the living daylight out of me! I guess I squish him too much. He is SOOOOOOOOOOOO active! These past few days has been non stop kicking....sometimes it's great, but other times I get kinda sore and annoyed with it all, especially at night when I try to sleep! I get up to go pee, and when I lay back down he thinks it's time to play, so he does his Tae Bo in my stomach. I just can't wait to have him here....but then I would be REALLY sleep deprived.
I've been naping everyday lately......still! And for like 2-3 hours!!!! It's totally rediculous! Then I sleep in until about 7:30. I hope I'm ready for Elijah to come...cause right now, I'm not! I would be so cranky if he came right now.

I'm so excited about buying stuff for Elijah. We have some stuff already from Gabriel....but Gabriel was born in Feb and Elijah will be born in July. Thankfully I have found clothes that will fit him though :) And we are saving up to buy him that beautiful stroller set :) I can't wait to buy it!!!! I can't wait to have a baby shower (well....I hope I have one).

I have about a month left until I drive 7 hours to my in-laws, and I'm not looking forawrd to the whole 3 weeks without my husband!! I am looking forawrd to the driving, the adventure, but not the loneliness!! Sure, I'll get help, but it's so totally NOT the same! I'll probably cry myself to sleep every night while I'm there! I'm pathetic, I know!

Well....We are starting to poyyt train Brooke now, while I still have a chance to. Gabriel is completely potty trained, so we are done with night time diapers, we just have to deal with reagualr diapers now with Brooke....I'm hopeing to have her potty trained and only in night time diapers by the time this baby is born...or a few months after. It took a week to potty train Gabriel....if I stick with that routine, I can do it with Brooke too :)

Until next week!

25 weeks

So things have been going well this past week, besides getting sick with who knows what! I’m finally over it, I just have a cough...and occasionally cough stuff up, but I feel SO much better!

I have an appt. this week and am looking forawrd to it :) I love knowing how the baby is doing and progressing each month.
In 3 weeks I have to get RhoGAM in the butt! I’m RH- (A-) so at 28 weeks I have to get a shot in the butt and if the baby comes out with a blood type of + I have to get it after birth....thankfully it doesn’t hurt, they always give the shot in the fatty part of the body. Both Gabriel and Brooke came out I had to deal with my kids being Jaundice....really bad, actually. When your Rh- and your kids come out + like the daddy, then they most always have jaundice, which sucks. Gabriel had it really bad, we had to stay 3 nights in the hospital just to bring his billirubin at a safe level and with Brooke we thankfully got to stay home and keep her under lights, she didn’t have it half as bad. Lets hope this baby is a - blood type or at least doesn’t have jaundice to badly! (crossing my fingers)

My cravings have been.....uhhhh....random! I really don’t know what I want, really. At the beginning I always wanted salty stuff, but lately, it’s been randdom stuff, like oranges and raisins....sometimes ice cream, sometimes strawberry shortcake, but my cravings have gone to the sweeter side of things rather then salty, which is good...I guess...haha!

Last night was a rough night for me! I have tendonitis, and I never know when it will flare up....but last night....boy did it hurt! I have it in my arm and I just couldn’t find a comfy position to lay in, so I went to bed at 11 and didn’t fall asleep til who knows when, then I woke up at 2:30 to pee then didn’t fall back asleep until about 3 or 4 then Gabriel woke up screaming because of his night terrors, then at 5 Matthew’s alarm went off because of PT....then I fell back asleep until it was just a random night for me. It still hurts so badly!!! I took some tylonol, so we will see how it helps!

This baby is still kicking like crazy! Hes literally punching me! I laugh when I see and feel it because it’s just so amazing how the woman’s body works! Sometimes I see my stomach jump and know he’s just going wild in my belly!

These past few days Brooke has been SO needy. All she says to me all day is "up" "hug" "up"....I enjoy it, to a point! She’s only 24 lbs, so she’s not really heavy, but still!! Matthew was gone all weekend, so I think that’s why she was needy....the kids always know when daddy is gone...and boy do they act out! The end of May (the 17th) Matthew is going to an OIC (Officer in Charge) training, and that will be 3 weeks long!!!!! I’m not looking forward to that! I think I will head up to his parents house in Missouri for that time so I can have some help....I don’t know anyone around here really, there’s no family here, so I think Missouri is a good bet.

Anyway, things have been going great besides the normal pragnancy pains...pressure, peeing every 10 min and my hormones!
Until next week :)

24 weeks

Well, it’s been 24 weeks thus far.

These past few days have been less then fun! I’ve had this cold/flu/congestion thing going on, where my head feels like it’s being squeezed and my ears are all clogged, and my teeth hurt because my sinuses are blocked :( o0o0o and I can’t talk...I really sound like a smoker.
Last night was just horrible! I went shopping when I guess I shouldn’t have, and it took a toll on my body. I was having contractions (or braxton-hicks) from after dinner until late in the night...and I know they were contractions because everytime my stomach tightened, Elijah would go bizerk! I remember when I was in labor with my other 2....they would do the same thing...go crazy everytime my uterus would contract! I didn’t call the doctor because I know it was because I overdid myself, and all the doctor would do is do a stress test...spend hours at the hospital...and then send me home telling me to not oever do’s happened before, I know it would happen again.

This baby likes being on my right side for some odd reason. Last week I had horrible pains shooting down my leg due to the fact that he likes it over there, and was pushing on my sciatic nerve....not fun!

I’ve been REALLY tired lately. Thankfully I have great kids who sleep in until 7:30-8:00 am, I don’t know what I would do if they woke up at 5 or 6 am, and on top of that, I take naps EVERY day! Matthew is good to me and takes care of the kids if they wake up from their nap to let me finish my nap :) I sleep WAYYYYYY more then Matthew does, he makes fun of me because I do...but I know he’s jealous that I sleep more then him though ;)

I’ve still been REALLY emotional lately. This past weekend, Matthew had FTX (Field Training Exercise) for ROTC and was gone Friday Saturday and came home Sunday morning, but Friday night I cried myself to sleep because I missed him so much!! It’s really pathetic. I’m the type that HATES being alone, I have to have someone around me all the time....sometimes I like my alone time, as long as someone is at calling distance. I guess you could say I’m dependant on sounds worse then it is...or maybe not. I don’t know what I would do if he got called to Iraq or something bad happened to him. All I I’ve been over emotional, and I really shouldn’t have balled myself to sleep....I didn’t Saturday, but Friday was extra emotional!

Anyway....besides being sick, this pregnancy is going great. Elijah is a little gymnast constantly. I think he’s going to be a fiesty one...Brooke was like this in the womb and she is one fiesty girl! We shall see :)

23 weeks

Ok, 23 weeks so far, and I’m feeling the pressure...literally!
Elijah loves pushing on my uterus and thus resulting in bad pressure!! He also loves kicking me "down there" and making it feel like I could have this baby any minute now!

I think I have been having braxton hicks contractions...but I’m not sure! I sometimes feel some tightness in my tummy...but I can’t decide if it’s contractions or just Elijah playing games with me. Either way....they are not fun!
My boobs have finally stopped growing! I’m no longer in pain, but now I have to get a new bra...haha.

My cravings have shifted a little from the beginning of my pregnancy. I still have cravings for salty stuff, but my cravings for fruit has overshadowed the salty cravings. I am eating oranges and raisins til they come out of my ears!! I could substitute all my meals for oranges and raisins....though I don’t.

I’ve been doing a lot better with my "diet", like eating a ton of fruit, and cutting back on the salty stuff and I have been walking with my dog Ammon 30 min a day. I am back to my pre pregnancy weight, so we shall see what I’m up to in the next 2 weeks when I see the Doc again. I pray I don’t gain another 6 lbs that fast!!

My hormones have been out of control this week. I’ve been completely irrational!! Matthew told me yesterday that I could get some more clothes (because I NEED them...and yes, he is the one that deals with the he tells me what I can buy, if not then we wouldn’t pay our bills)...well, I started crying because I wanted to get enough to last me for a while, but didn’t think I could get all that I was just pathetic!! Thankfully, today we got paid money that needed to come a WHILE now I get to spend a lot more on clothes then what I excpected!
I cry when I punish my yesterday Brooke got into something she knew she wasn’t supposed to get I told her to go to time out....she started crying...usually it doesn’t get me too much, but this time....I cried along with her! I was being just as emotional as her! Sometimes I really don’t like these hormones!
Anyway....things have been going great, other then just regualr pregnancy stuff....but I can deal with it, I did my last 2 pregnancies, and I can this one!

I hope you all had a great Easter :)

22 weeks

Well, another week has gone by and I’m just getting bigger. Elijah is a regular gymnist, and loves kicking me down there, it literally feels like he is going to pop out at any moment! I can’t wait until he is head down....but then he would just kick my ribs non stop, so I can’t win. I’ve gotten to the point where I want him out now...although I LOVE LOVE feeling him kick me, I just want him here with me now.

I’ve come to the realization that my breasts will NEVER stop growing!!! It seems like every few days my boobs get so sore and then once they stop hurting i notice they have gotten bigger. I can no longer fit into my size C’s frustrating, but I’m happy with it. With my other 2 kids I really never got this big and could never really feed them, only for a few months....either I couldn’t or i wouldn’t, but I know with this one I WILL nurse him.

Gabriel is starting to realize that I have a baby inside me, whenever I ask him where his baby is, he points to my belly and rubs it, he also trys to pull my shirt up and see if something is there...haha. Brooke doesn’t really understand, but she does put her hand on my stomach, probably because it’s so big.

I just can’t wait to hold this baby in my arms....I’m getting so so excited, but so so nervous. I have clothes that Gabriel wore when he was a new born and a baby, and it’s starting to become so real for me. o0o0o and the whole kicking thing has made it real also...haha.
All in all, things are going great, life couldn’t be better. It seems like everytime I get pregnant I am always in a stressful situation....this time, things did start out VERY stressful, but things are finally setteling down, we are financially stable, in our own home, and Matthew is finishing school to better our lives, so I’m very content. I just hope I don’t have really bad Post Partum Depression....that kills me, but we will see what happens, and if it does, I can always talk to the docs.

21 weeks 19 more weeks to go! I'm wicked excited, yet nervous at the same time.

Today I had my pap, and the Doc talked to me about my ultrasound....everything is grand, except that I gained 6 lbs in the last 2 weeks!!!!!! YIKES!!! I REALLY need to cut back on the salty stuff. I have been eating fresh fruits and veggies these past few weeks since the weather has been so beautiful out (I mean, I eat fresh fruits and veggies all the time, but more so lately). So....maybe more walks and longer walks when I take the dog for a walk.

Elijah is soooo active, especially at night right before I settle down to sleep. He also loves being on my right side. Today the doc checked the baby's heartbeat and couldn't find it on the left side so I told him to check on the right cause he loves being there...and there he was, as loud as could be.
Matthew loves feeling Elijah move...makes it more real for him.

Still having lower pains cause he's so low and kicks me down there...and I have to pee like every hour.
Other then that, things are going great. :) Couldn't be better!
Can't write too long cause I need to fix dinner, but wanted to get on real quick before I forgot :)

Until next week....have a great week :)

20 weeks

Well, I'm half way there :)

I can't believe this pregnancy has gone by so fast.
I'm feeing Elijah more and more and love it so much! Saturday, Matthew felt his son for the first time. Usually, when I feel the baby kick I put Matthew's hand on my stomach and the baby stops kicking, but with Elijah, it was the first time I put his hand on my stomach and he made Matthew very happy.

I'm now starting to get pains of him pressing on different parts of the uterus, so I have to shake him or gently move him, then I feel a lot better. He's definitely awake at night. I get up to go to the bathroom, and when I get back in bed he thinks it's time to it takes me a while to get back to sleep. I'm not sure how I'm going to like him out of the womb with this schedule, haha!!

I'm still craving salty, sour, hot, bitter stuff. I made hot wings a few nights ago for some friend who was supposed to come over, it never happend, so I ate them all by myself (I paced myself, and saved some for a later meal, dont worry). I'm actually craving hot wings right now as I'm writing this.....mmmmmm.

Anyway, things are going great! I feel really connected to this baby. Not that I didn't feel connected with my other 2, but I feel even more connected, and I just can't wait to deliver this baby :)
I went to Wal-Mart the day we found out we were having a boy and got him this adorable outfit. Boys are so much harder to find clothes for then girls, you have to be more creative with boys.
Anyway....until next week. :)

We found out what we are having....

A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's so weird, cause I totally thought I was having a girl. So, all my kids I thought were I can't guess anymore! haha
He is totally ALLL boy! He was showing his manly part off and was proud of it :) lol

We are wicked excited about having another boy. Matthew is very happy!
His name will be Elijah David. We loved the name Elijah, and David is Matthew's dad's name and Matthew's middle name, so we thought it would be nice to do another David.

We can't wait to meet our little son come this July.

19 weeks along

Ok, so I've decided to blog all about my pregnancy with Elijah. I never did with my other 2, so I think it's about time to start!

This is an older blog from my Myspace account....I've just copied and pasted here:

So today I am 19 weeks preggers :)

I went to the docs today and it went very well. I really like the doctor that I have, he's very nice. I can't stand doctors that don't care, your just a number to them. I told him the fears that I have, and he completely understood. I'm so totally afraid of getting a c-section for some odd reason, maybe the whole needle IN your spine and then the recovery afterwards is a pain...literally! I want a natural birth, if possible, my last epidural was not a good experience. I'm also afraid that they will induce me, which will lead to a c-section...but he said if I'm 42 weeks or there are complications that I need to be induced, then I will get induced, but my last 2 pregnancies were normal natural deliveries, so no need to worry.
The doctors also told me that I look too young to have 2 kids and one on the way already.....that made me feel really good! They didn't believe me when I told them I was 5 months....THAT made me feel good! I guess they are used to telling pregnant women that? lol either made my day!

I'm right where I'm supposed to be....I am very in tune with my pregnancy! i heard the baby's heartbeat and I measured 19 I'm good to go :)
The doctor will call me tomorrow and let me know when I can get an ultrasound. I hope it happens this week or next....I'm wicked excited!! When I find out, I'm getting an outfit for my baby :) always a tradition....I always go and get an outfit right after finding out what I'm having! :)

Everything else is going great. My kids are really good, they have been sick lately, and have wanted my attention 24/7 but that is now subsiding and things are back to normal. Now, Matthew is sick...and when he gets sick, he's like a baby and wants to be pampered, so I love on him and make sure to give him lots of hugs and kisses on the forehead, and he's fine.

Everything is going wonderfully, though. I couldn't ask for anything better.

Monday, April 21, 2008

18 weeks

Ok, so we are finally settled in our new home....whew! We feel a LOT better here then at that other house. The landlord is so much nicer. He's spanish, so Matthew and him can talk Spanish...I just love hearing Matthew speak it for some reason.

Well, I'm 5 months preggers :) and I'm getting bigger, that's for sure! I am feeling the baby move more and more each day and love it so much! She usually moves a lot when I go to bed and when I get up to go potty and then settle back in bed. I'm still sleeping on my stomach...she kicks a lot then too when I'm on my stomach. I'm a total stomach sleeper and hate when I have to adjust to sleeping on my side.

It always happens that during my 2nd trimester something goes wrong with my pregnancy. I never get morning sickness (thankfully) and I think my body makes up for it during my 2nd trimester. With Gabriel, I was always sick, like the cold, couldn't breath during the night and with Brooke I got a bad rash. This one, I also have a bad rash! I first thought it was because I was coming into a dryer location, but a few nights ago my right hand had a rash like I've never seen before, it was horrible! No matter how much lotion I put on, it didn't go away. Thankfully it went away the next morning, but it's just really annoying! It will go away during my 3rd trimester. It's always a routine during my pregnancy.

I'm still craving salty stuff, like A1 Sauce and hot wings. We are having someone come over this week and we are making hot wings...I always make them when someone comes over for dinner. I'm really craving junk food....and hate it more then anything! I really have to control myself!
I'm still having growing pains...and i sometimes feel a lot of pressure when she adjusts...I'm just not used to it yet. Who knows how big this kid will be. Gabriel was 6 lbs 8 oz and Brooke was 8 lbs and 7 oz, quite a big jump. I'm hoping this one will be a safe 7 lbs or so. I don't feel like pushing out a 10 pounder...outch! I'm debating in my mind if I should go alllll natural. With Brooke I got an epidural but it didn't do anything, it took my contractions away for a while, but when it was time to push...BOY, it felt like I was being riped from head to toe, that's how much it hurt! Then after when they transfered me to my room, I was as white as a ghost (litteraly) and I almost collapsed trying to get out of the wheelchair, my right leg was completely numb! So, I'm thinking about all natural, no pain meds this time.....we shall see!

Anyway, until next week :)

Sunday, April 20, 2008

17 weeks

Well, I am 17 weeks as of yesterday. I'm so excited about getting bigger (well, the baby getting bigger rather then me as a whole getting bigger). I'm feeling the baby more and more everyday. Some days I don't notice any movement, and somedays I notice a lot! I'm calling this baby Alyssa, because I have a gut feeling I'm having another girl. I also thought that about Gabriel, but...we shall find out.

Things here have been crazy! We are moving to another house to get out of this situation. The lady that owns this house is one corrupt person! She called us telling us that we needed to pay for everything that is damaged, stuff that we didn't damage, so we basically told her no, then a few days later she kept sending us rude voice mail messages, Matthew sent her a text and told her to stop sending rude messages and that we are moving tomorrow, we will leave the keys to the house on the kitchen counter. Then he changed our cell so she cant contact us at all. She was being way to controlling, and there's one person in this world who won't be controled, is Matthew, so he's making it so the ball is in our court.
Our new landlord is a lot better! He actually knows Matthew's dad, they served in the Army here in Lawton together, so we feel a lot safer with this guy.

Well, I have a Dr's appt the 26th of this month, then from there I'll make an appt to get an ultrasound :) I'm just so excited about seeing this baby! Then again, I'm so scared because I know exactly what's going to happen July 22nd (give or take a few days). I'm feeling like I'm stuck, there's no way out....I'm not looking forward to long hours of labor or pushing, and I DO NOT want a c-section! Those fears are consuming me a lot lately, but I know in the long run I'll be wicked happy cause I'll have my new baby to hold and kiss :)

Well, until next week :)